DrunkenMonkey13

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Wouldnt it be so much easier if we didnt have to study? if, the first time we learnt something, it stayed in our brains forever and could be called up whenever needed and related to other things that we've learnt? it would mean that we could get through a lot more at school and then maybe not have to be there for as long. if you havent guessed ive been studying quite a bit and its been pissing me off. not the fact that ive actually been studying and getting stuff done but the way it makes me feel. i always feel so tired, so crabby once ive finished studying for the day and cant be bothered to do anything else. but ive nearly finished another subject for english today- Emma and Clueless. i say nearly because ive still got another two scenes to analyse but after doing six hours of notes on E&C today i really cant be bothered. have a driving lesson tomorrow morning. hopefully it goes well and he says that HE thinks im ready to go for the test and he books it. but if he does say yes and i do go for it im not telling anyone when it is exactly. so dont even bother asking! that way i wont get too excited, noones going to keep wishing me luck, and i wont be too disappointed when i fail. but i really need to pass; emma might have a job at Shellharbour woolies and so ill be probably one of the taxis, i need to have my license for next year, if i get this job at Jamberoo ill have to drive there, i need a bit more independance, and its just silly that im 18 and i still have me l's. then i have my interview. im not really stressing about it believe it or not. i think im going to wear my suit. so i look all professional like. Havent seen my nathan in a little while; ive been working or studying or he's been out or whatever. and i havent seemed to talk to him as much as usual lately either. i think its mainly my fault. it seems that at a certain time of the month i get a bit crabbier and the only person i seem to not like as much is my own boyfriend. i still love him but everything just seems to annoy me about him. the last couple of months have been better but, so maybe its just that you know starting out in a relationship, the things that annoy you at first you'll learn to love as well. i really dont think its a problem, i wont ever break up with him because of it, it just seems that i need more space around that time. might see if he wants to come around tomorrow night. i was just looking on the supre site ( for something to do :P) and i swear that either the shorts and skirts are getting shorter or im just getting older. karyn reckons the young 'ens are just getting sluttier. speaking of karyn i brought the rest of her birthday present yesterday. its a joint present between me and nathan so i was able to spend a bit more money on it without spending more money :P i really cant think of what else to write. hsc starts next week. how fun! english first, on the monday, then again on the wednesday, then maths the next monday, then hospitality the tuesday, then retail the next thursday and then art the next wednesday. so its not too bad. hahahaha im still looking at the supre site and they have fashion trends and one is "punk princess" and the clothes were the furthest thing from punk ever. i suppose the oxymoron "punk princess" should have told me all i needed to know. and the fifties stuff just looks stupid. most of the clothes that came out of the forties and fifties were beautiful- really simple stuff, clean lines, made a chick look like a lady but this was just.....stupid. damn supre! i took some photos last night out of boredom and now ive got them on the computer they all basically look like theyre out of focus. stupid things. ill still put a few of them on here anyway. they havent had much done to them and alot of them are shit but anywho.

byes

So what? Im....: i cant stop writing!
I love this song:: number nine on the Lamb album

jarrod just put photoshop cs on the computer so im just mucking around with that now. the filter thingies are heaps good.
i just had to go and move all the cars inside- the rav, the beast and the silly car. i dont even have my p's or a car and here i am driving all these cars into the yard. but i felt rich ay. carrying around 3 sets of keys. then i left the keys to the rav in the silly car and had to go get them then i nearly ran over the cat but oh well.
been studying heaps lately. im really proud of what ive done- two subjects for english= nearly a book of notes. only teo more subjects to go. im a bit behind in what i wanted to get done but this is more studying then ive ever done before. but my mums been a weird one; i know that if i wasnt studying then she'd lecture me but she doesnt think i should be doing as much studying as im doing, and im not even doing as much as i know i should be doing! She reckons that its going to stress me out and keeps telling me to go places and stuff or not to study. but whats stressing me out is the fact that im not doing as much as i should be. i listen to cds whilst im studying and im going through my cd case listening to every cd. so far theres 35 cds in a stack next to my cd player. So say that each cd goes for roughly an hour thats 35 hours of study ive done in the past 2 weeks. and so say that ive done the same amount of study each day for those 14 days (which i didnt) then thats 2.5 hours a day. which really isnt much.
had a bit of a get together last night. was supposed to be just about 8 of my friends, pizzas and drinks. but then one friend wasnt sure if she could come because of work, one friend told me on the day that she wasnt coming, and then one friend messaged me a couple of hours before it started to say that his girlfriend was stuck in sydney and he was really sick so i was stuck with 3 people. but it was still fun. karyn wouldnt shut up. we went and tried to say hello to rogers at work but he wasnt there but we saw alysha ( why didnt she come?). got pizzas from work and said hello to the munkchins there. brad got excited because i told him i got an interview for Jamberoo Rec Park (yay!). came back and watched karyns list of reality tv. karyn left so we changed the channel and watched the footy show and some really weird show on the SBS (well what did i expect?). then kerry went home (she got a lift and she lives two minutes away! well i suppose my brother and mum did force her to take the lift.) then nathan went home at exactly midnight (and he didnt turn into a pumpkin) because i kept falling asleep. all in all it was a pretty good night.
had some weird phone calls today. one of emma's "friends" kept ringing up and asking for emma and when i asked who it was they wouldnt tell me and hung up. the second time they called me a shithead. stupid kids. then my boss rang me and wanted to know why i had a really high docket average at work and i thought i was in trouble but she just wanted to know how i did it but i dont have any secrets ive just taken alot of big orders and so i sort of got a compliment of her and i might even get more shifts *crosses fingers*
started decorating a t.shirt for Kerry today. hardly did any but.
anywho emmas yelling at me to get off the computer so i better go.
byes!

I love these last pictures of the dogs...they look like portraits...probably because of the flash. but its a really interesting angle. contrast is my friend!!

The Clock of Life

The clock of life is wound but once.
And noone has the power
To tell just when the hands will stop.
At late or early hour.
Now is the only time you own
Live, love, toil with a will.
Place no faith in tomorrow, for
The clock may then be still.

ok so its been pretty much a week since i last posted. im so lazy. well actually its not really that ive just been busy. and lazy.

i cant be bothered to try and remember what ive done every single day so ill just do a sort of general thing.

last tuesday i went up to Homebush with my chickie karyn. hadnt had much sleep the night before and i was beginning to get sick so i wasnt feeling all the best but it was a fun day anywho. got a clutch bag for the formal.

been sick most of the week. mum thinks its a chest infection. how fun.

On Friday Jarrod was at work so i got on his computer and played Sims2. its really good and really addictive. My girls going good now. had a few whoo hoo's. lol. i got on it at about 1.30 on friday afternoon and got off at about 5ish. i havent had a chance to play again yet and i really want too!

been studying too. if anyone wants to know anything about The Tempest, Wind in the Willows or Back to the Future (especailly sc.7) then just ask me. im actually really proud of myself. this is the most study i think ive ever done. and ive only done a little bit of english. ive decided the best way to do it is rewarding myself. e.g today if i finish off my notes on BTTF (done), my notes on Pure Imagination by the Atarias and write notes on one poem by Gwen Harwood then i can play Sims 2. thats if Jarrod gets home in time with the computer and Emma doesnt play for too long. Hopefully it will work.

I feel like dying my hair or going out and buying a whole new wardrobe. like completly doing a overhaul on myself. not becoming a new person just improving myself. mainly on the outside. because on the inside i think im alright at the moment. maybe i could be a bit nicer to people but i do think ive got alot better.

Anywho I better go and get my study done. Nothing else much interesting has happened this week. Nathan came over a few times, it was my cousins birthday on friday, i worked last night (yay! 3 hours pay!) and thats really about it.

Byes!

So what? Im....: i blame you nathan!!
I love this song:: i need new, different music!!

okay so the last thing i wrote about was wednesday so ill update about my life thus far. im lazy so im going to do it day by day.

THURSDAY

• we went to luna park


• yes yes a lot of fun


• have to recommend the tango and the mouse thingie rollercoaster to all.


• funniest thing of the day? hmmm....its a close call between anna and summah getting freaked on the ferris wheel. the mouse rollercoaster when kerry almost choked me. nathan getting a cramp on the tango. the boys making semi-pornagraphic scenes with toy men in the middle of the park and watching peoples reactions


• worst thing? puke on the bus coming home. mum said shes never seen me so green


• should get my photos back soon so i can see all the fun memories


• then nathan came back afterwards and we both fell asleep on the couch. very comfortable. lol. i love being squashed!

FRIDAY

• had our final school assembly


• fairly boring really- it was way too long


• amazing to see how unorganised our year is/was; 5mins before the start of the assembly they were still trying to organise the entrance and the whole giving the teachers presents thing was a schmozzle


• cacked myself when garret smacked hetho in the face with a cream pie. you shouldve seen mcgovern's face. lucky hetho stepped in or poor liddle garret wouldnt be going to the formal.


• sad to think that that was our very very last day at school. well half day anyway. even though were still going to be at the school for our exams it wont be the same because we wont all be there at the same time and we wont be able to "mingle". and then theres the formal but it will be different because ... i dont know it will just be different. theres some people i really will miss, some people itll be weird not to see everyday and some people i dont really give a stuff about.


• then me and mum went down to the bowlo for lunch and then there was a group of ladies that kids used to go to St. Pauls so we sat with them for lunch. yay! i love listening to mums gossip


• i cant remember what i did for the rest of the day. obviously really fun stuff

SATURDAY

• was my cousins birthday so we went over to his house. little kids, cake, lunch. fun fun fun


• then i went to work. wasnt that bad because i was working with brad ( he likes someone else now finally, hes not still obsessed with the other one!)


• but then again it was semi-bad because we only had one driver on and about 15 or so deliveries at the one time so we had a heap of people ringing up and complaining and stupid brad made me take some of the calls so i had to listen to impatient people complain.


• am thinking of getting an extra job as a delivery driver there to make some more money - dad can drive me until i get my license


• nathan picked me up and came back to my house. didnt end up leaving until the wee hours of the morning so another late night for me.

SUNDAY

• brain not working....cant think of what i did yesterday. how sad is that


• oh yes i remember


• i got up late and then picked karyn up and went to anna's jewellery party.


• came home and talked to Nathan and he decided to come over


• just watched tv and stuff and once again we fell asleep on the couch but this time dad woke us up at 2ish and nathan went home

TODAY (MONDAY)

• slept in a bit and then went to Warrawong for a few hours


• came home and went to sleep on the couch for about 4 hours ( i seem to be spending alot of time on that couch!)


• got up had tea, came on here to do this, talked to Nathan, sent a resume and email to the Novotel.


• now im finished this so im going to bed

BYES!

So what? Im....: tired
I love this song:: Eskimo Joe

will have more when i get my films back.

So what? Im....: indescribable

meh!

So what? Im....: i have a headache :(
I love this song:: Outkast- My Favourite Things

watched three movies last night;

21 grams- wasnt too bad. a bit hard to follow as it jumped around alot but once the story started to come together it was quite good. thought provoking stuff. i think i like it more then mum and dad but- it was a bit too kooky for them and they got confused. i give it 4 choc chip cookies.

how to deal- mandy moore movie. thought it was going to be the usual teeny bopper, feel good, romantic movie but it was slightly different. there was some really sad bits and it was quite as rainbows and butterflies as i thought it would be. i give it 3 choc chip cookies.

love dont cost a thing- this was the last movie i watched and i wasnt all that impressed. it was fine for a little harmless distraction but i thought it could be done a lot better. i give it 1 1/2 choc chip cookies.

so after that i watching those i went to bed and got up at 11am. so much for helping dad at his job today! had lunch and then we went over to warilla to look at the surf shop. nothing there except a pair of pants that were still expensive.
got back in the car and the car wouldnt start. called the nrma but after a while it started so we left.
went to Chelseas to see if they were open to talk to them about the hairstyle i want for my formal. they werent open so we had a look inthe shops near it."
went in two really nice shops...cant really remember their names but the clothes in there.... i could really almost buy everything in there. why is that everytime i really cant spend money i find heaps of clothes that i really really like? seriously, alot of the clothes that are out now are the styles that i have been looking for for ages. so if anyone wants to give me money to buy clothes id greatly appreciate it. :D or any of my friends or family reading...please, please give me either money or gift vouchers to a really good clothes shop! ta. lol

im trying to look for a good photo of the hairstyle that i want for my formal. heres a few that ive found so far, and yes they are mostly of Mary-Kate and Ashley. these are the curls that i want, with maybe some of the top pieces pulled back with a flower that i brought. oh and does anybody know a way that i would be able to get these curls to stay in for a couple of days or something? mum suggested a body wave?? and im sorry that the photo of reese witherspoon is really bad. and theres a photo of me in my formal dress as well.

give us some comments on what you think

anywho im going to go now.

byes

p.s happy 4 months babe. i heart you!!

So what? Im....: contemplative
I love this song:: Antiskeptic- Called

went to "help" my dad at the fair today and ended up taking photos. i took over 100 so it should be fun to muck around with them.
nathans away for the weekend...end of season footy trip. i wonder when he'll be sober. starting to miss him already.
have to work tonight. how fun. im really hoping i get a job somewhere else. ive applied to a heap of places just have to wait until i get a response i suppose.
personaly i think im getting better with my photography. i dont know if i am really but i feel more satisfied with it.

Go into your LJ's archives.
2. Find your 23rd post (or closest to).
3. Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions
 
apparently i dont type in proper english and i type like a four year old with my face.

hmm interesting
my camera does not like sunlight and is therefore very, very gay.
my little cousins provide most of my inspiration as you will see.
i love mucking around with contrast. its basically the only photoshopping i do on my photos.
finally finished mucking around with my photos...all 46 of them

2 1/2 days left off school really. wednesdays written off because of muck up day. thursday we're at luna park and friday we're only there for half the day for the assembly.
im scared to think that in 6 days time i will no longer be at school. after 13 years theres only 6 days left. scary!
and then theres the hsc. even more scarier

anywho im going to go. im bored now
byes!

So what? Im....: crushed
I love this song:: She will be loved- Maroon 5...its in my head

• lunches
• bitches and gossips with the girls
• double frees on the grass and chips
• our tiny retail class and Mrs Lyddiard 
• the friends i have made recently.
• guilt trips ( that were only in fun)
• tiny art class
• retreats
• discussions with Kerry about music, about life, about everything
• so many little jokes that will take to long to write and remember
• large group fights in year 10
• finding love...twice

Things that I wont miss;

• large group fights in year 10
• falling out of love...once
• depression
• the amazing amount of friends ive lost
• the movies in year 10 & 11
• most of year 11
• studying
• lessons
• exams
• essays

Cant believe we've only got 5 days left. If i think of anything else ill put them up.

Put my resumes in at places around the town today. Hopefully i can get a better job and get more money.

Mucked around with the camera after that. Did some poses with my hat :P

( im oh so sexy! )

byes!

So what? Im....: accomplished
I love this song:: tasha whinging at the door

okay so i went up to the rock eisteddfod to help and heres what happened;

• had to get up at frickin 5.30am. Damn sydney for being 2 hours away.
• went to Maccas for breakfast. way too early to eat so i had a coffee. tasted like shit. *reminder to self. dont drink Maccas coffees*
• had to go on the performers bus so i sat by myself and listened to music because i dont really know anyone in rocko and i was on the year 11 bus
• got up there and asked my stupid old dancing teacher if they wanted help with makeup and hair (what they said they wanted me there for) and she said no so im like fine..
• so i went shopping instead.
• me and mum walked from the entertainment centre to the QVB and had a look around there. theres so much i would love to buy but i dont have enough money.
• walked to find Dean's work. Found it.
• Said hello to Dean. 'twas good to see him again. been months since i last saw him. so i said hello to him, had a little talk whilst he worked and then he cried when i left.
• walked back to the entertainment centre and met dad. tried to decide where to go for lunch
• went and had a look at paddys. went to market city above paddys and found a italian restaurant to have lunch at. had pasta. was fairly good. broke rocko law and had a west coast with lunch.
• brought my hat (photos afterwards).
• went back to rocko and watched our schools run through and then listened to the stage crews meeting.
• got a message from dean to say that the was finishing work and was i still in the city. asked him if he wanted to see the rocko because we had a free ticket. had a minor disagreement because he wanted to get drunk and you cant drink at it.
• met him at maccas with the rest of the family. caught up
• rang my nathan to check on him :p.
• dean decided to see some of rocko and then go out with his mates
• dean and i sat in the 2 free seats- 2 rows back from the front. seats werent as bad as i thought they were going to be.
• had fun with dean- paying out every school and the judges (" i loved your moving fixtures") had people sitting around us that i knew so we talked to them a bit
• dean left so i went and sat back with mum and dad and that. theyre seats werent as good.
• they gave out the awards (we got the drug awareness award :P) then the places. 1st- Mackeler Girls 2nd- Randwick 3rd- Northmead 4th- Smiths Hill 5th- Pymble (Big shock; everyone thought they were going to win)
• went home on the stage crew bus. alot of fun. trying to sleep at 1am with people swearing behind you ("okay if you swear again you have to kiss richard"), yelling and singing (" we have to sing all the way back to Albion Park" "okay.... Bananas in Pajamas...")
• got home at 3am - 20 hours without sleep that day
• slept until 1pm the next day

So thats it for that day. Then i went to work on Saturday night and got to stay back on extra hour (!) because we were really busy. Before i went to work i dropped a resume down at the video shop and Gemma - a girl i went to that kenvale thing- was there and she said she got into kenvale as well so its all good.
Then Nathan picked me up from work and i took the pizzas home for dinner. Then we just watched tv and he fell asleep on the couch :( lol

Then on sunday i did nothing but an art exam. fun fun.

so thats my weekend.

and heres the photos of my brand spanking new hat

byes! :D