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Dec. 30th, 2006 @ 11:05 pm Been a long time
So what? Im....: blahblah
Just because Ive done this the past two years I thought I might as well do it this year. Plus I'm bored.

What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
where to start...there was so much...ate Thai and found out I love it (wait or was that last year), got engaged, finished my Advanced Diploma, quit at the Novotol, started at the Grace in Sydney, god I don't know...I've changed and developed so much this year

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
last year was just to finish my course and improve myself in different ways so I'm pretty sure I did that. Next year;
* lose 15kgs by May and get healthier and fitter
* stop eating crap (related to above but it definetly needs to be done)
* plan everything for my wedding and not get stressed out
* move out
* keep in touch with my friends and family
* be the best I can be at work and work my way up
* be the best I can be always

3. Did someone close to you give birth?
not this year

4. Did anyone close to you die?
not personally but sadly alot of people died

5. What countries did you visit?
none I need a holiday

6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
money, time, sleep, motivation

7. What dates from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
12th May - Dean proposed (biggest night of my life)
19th May - Hearts for Hearts event

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
successfully planning and executing a dinner and silent auction which raised $5000 for the Heart Foundation and I got a High Distinction for it!!!

9. What was your biggest failure?
Um, I'm not sure, there is so many things I wish I could've done better but instead of regretting them I'm going to make sure I don't repeat them

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
hmmm can't remember anything too bad cept my shoulders are really sunburnt at the moment. Oh and I got sick when me and Dean went for two nights away so that was really crappy

11. What was the best thing you bought?
hmm well I was proud of my christmas presents again.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Dean's, Tome, Lisa, Maryanne, Helen, Julian, Elle, Eugenia, Jess, Sarah

13. Whose behavior made you appalled?
oh god I can't believe how many people there are that do such crazy stuff...still can't believe the amount of racism, sexism, homophobia and everything there is. The Cronulla riots.... need I say more?

14. Where did most of your money go?
fees, paying my parents back, petrol, christmas presents

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
dean, my wedding, christmas presents :p

16. What song will always remind you of 2006?
too too many to mention

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or hardened? happier
ii. thinner or fatter? definetly fatter, god I need to lose some weight
iii. richer or poorer? well I'm not sure, I've paid all my fees plus most of the money I owe my parents so I've definetly had money so I could say richer but that means I havent actually had any money

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
talked to Kerry and Jacob more, sleeping, thinking,

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
moaning and bitching about working

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
well I spent it:
Christmas Eve we opened our presents at 1am and the Christmas Day I was working in the morning, then crying because it was my last day at the Novotel, then came home and had lunch with the family, then fell asleep on the couch then Dean came down and we watched the Glasshouse DVD then Boxing Day Dean's family came over then we went and saw Happy Feet

22. Did you fall in love in 2006?
oh god yes!

23. Any one-night stands?
haha I can't remember .... lol of course not

24. What was your favourite TV program?
The Glasshouse (Damn ABC!!!)

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
nope can't say I do...JH and GB have always annoyed me

26. What was the best book you read?
ummmm so many....have re-read the R.E.F series a couple of times....almost every book I've read was the best

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
hmmm I dunno there is alot of great musicans out there

28. What did you want and get?
god these things are hard...I can't remember stuff... oh of course Dean!!! Forever and ever

29. What did you want and not get?
corny as it sounds but Peace

30. Favorite film of this year?
Happy Feet - so,so, so funny!!!
Curious George - George is just adorable!!!

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I was 20, I had a cocktail party the week before and then Dean took me to the Observatory Hotel the night before my birthday, named a star after me, took me for the best dinner I have ever had, then proposed to me!

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
more sleep

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
ha! fashion concept! it was either my work uniform, college uniform, or clothes that didn't fit me anymore

34. What kept you sane?
Dean

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
meh

37. Who do you miss?
the staff at the Novotel, and I only quit a week ago!!

38. Who was the best new person you met?
um.... Lisa

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006:
Life is crazy and you just have to deal with it
Nov. 20th, 2005 @ 05:02 pm long time no talk
So what? Im....: chipperchipper
hi
just looking over all my past entries and just thought id update my life for anyone who still has me on thier friends list and is sorta interested.

Okay well alot has changed even since my last post. Ive finished school, got in the 80's for all of my HSC marks. Im at Kenvale College now doing Hospitality and Tourism management and have been dividing myself between Randwick and home, the course is great but its fucking stressful because i have to do 800hours work placement as well. But ive met heaps of great people. Supposed to be studying for my exams today but as you know me, study and me dont mix. although i have been going better this year and actually doing stuff and topped my class last sememster and am hoping to again this semeseter.

Probably the biggest change in my life over the past year was that i dumped Nathan (we were way too different) and about a month later started dating Dean. now i know everyone my age says this but he really is my soulmate. we are so much alike and he just.....corny as it sounds completes me. i couldnt have survived the last year without him. Driving home from our first date (lunch and talks on the beach at Coogee :D) i kept telling myself i was an idiot because all i could think of was this long and full future with him. even after about a month together there was talk about our future and marriage but we've slowed that down and even though we do bring it up every now and then we're just enjoying our time with each other.
But yeah, 8 months now and its been the happiest 8 months of my life.

I think ive grown up alot over the past year...most probably because ive had to with semi- moving out of home. but just personally i think i have. ive become really interested in physcology and just thinking about things differntly (especailly since Dean's doing physcology next year at uni) but im still yet to actually work out what i believe in.

okay im going to do the following just to summarise the past year;

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
started at a college, semi- moved out of home, caught the train and a bus by myself, actually put alot of work into assignments and study, started working at the Novotel and asked someone to marry me

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
they were just basically to accomplaish stuff so yeah i guess i did. next year would probably just to finish my course and improve myself in different ways

3. Did someone close to you give birth?
my cousin, again. welcome to the world Caitlen Sophie Elizabeth Young!

4. Did anyone close to you die?
my three-legged dog, Duke. Just died in his sleep. He had a good life but

5. What countries did you visit?
none how boring

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
money, time, sleep

7. What dates from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
9th March - 1st date with Dean
14th February - started college

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
topping my class in the first semester

9. What was your biggest failure?
not doing as much as i could have

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
no except i was "getting" a cold for about 3 months

11. What was the best thing you bought?
chrissie presents again, im so proud of them

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Dean's, Annique's, Emily's, Marianne's and the rest of my class for sticking through it and Kerry's although i hardly saw her this year

13. Whose behavior made you appalled?
Karyn's - i thought she'd understand. and the all of the people who still continue to kill others

14. Where did most of your money go?
fees!!! damn $1000 a month!

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
dean, im pretty excited about Christmas and any break of any sort that ive had this year

16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
oh there's heaps.... the Black Eyed Peas albumn, Missy Higgins albumn.....god theres too many to think of

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or hardened? happier
ii. thinner or fatter? definetly fatter
iii. richer or poorer? poorer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
studying, talked to Kerry and Jacob more, sleeping

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
bitching,(although it can be good therapy), moaning and bitching about working

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
probably working the morning and then dinner at home then hopefully seeing Dean and his family at some stage

22. Did you fall in love in 2005?
head over heels and so much more

23. Any one-night stands?
nope

24. What was your favourite TV program?
hmmm Grey's Anatomy, Lost

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
i dont hate anyone.....but one person does annoy the hell out of me

26. What was the best book you read?
all of the books by Raymond E Feist, he just keeps getting better, cant wait until Christmas so i can get his latest

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
anything and everything

28. What did you want and get?
Dean (just took me a while to realise it)

29. What did you want and not get?
sleep

30. Favorite film of this year?
hmm Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (so much better than the original)

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
19 and girls and Will from college came down, family was over, dean, kerry and jacob came and we just drank and played pool and had fun

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
more money and more sleep

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
didnt have one, i was either in my college uniform, work uniform, or trackies

34. What kept you sane?
Dean, Annique and Emily

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
meh

37. Who do you miss?
dean when he went to America

38. Who was the best new person you met?
my whole class

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
to take life by the horns and just give it all you've got.

So there you have it, a very long update of my life. I might use this journal again just to include anything i find interesting sometimes


Good talking to you again

Cassie
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Oct. 13th, 2004 @ 10:25 am yay huzah! no more catholicism!
So what? Im....: contemplativecontemplative
I love this song:: none- i want to move my cd player out here!
its good now. ive graduated from a catholic school which should mean that i have strengthened my catholic beliefs but what it does mean is that i can no start to become who i want to become. start to believe in what i want to believe in and not what other people tell me to believe in.
i dont belong to a religion. i cant say im catholic, i cant say im a buddhist, i cant say im a Lutherian. none of the above. all i am is myself. i believe in the power of myself and the power of others to change my life. not the power of some over-powering god.
ive started to think about this becuase of the quote below- i found it while looking for postmodern beliefs on truth. i would have loved to keep doing extension english because even though i couldnt keep up with the writing style of it, the stuff we learnt was just stuff that could keep you thinking for days.
but yeah what if there was no god? what if he was made up just to comfort people, to explian the mysteries of life, to create fear in people? what would happen if someone was to prove that there was no god? what would happen to the world? would there be widespread panic or would most people be alright because they already knew this?
i remember at our last religious retreat for school, earlier this year. schibeci asked us a series of statements and we had to go stand in parts of the room if we agreed, disagreed or was unsure with them, and then she would ask people to explain why they were there. there were stuff like "God controls everything". "God created the world". stuff like that. and it took me a while but i started to comment. i started to say what i believed in. stuff like God cannot control everything. we are in power of what we do. if God could control everything then it would mean that we were possessed by him and were only doing what he wanted us to do.
but anyway i was just really starting to say what i was thinking, i hadnt truly worked it out for myself but i was getting there. and kerry told me that a heap of people afterwards were going "wow" and really liking what i was saying. but i dont want to try to convert people to my brand of individulism, i just want people to start thinking for themselves. to start working out what they really believe in.
and then when i went to that college thing in july, i was in a room with two other girls and one of the girls had fallen asleep but me and the other girl, natalie, couldnt get to sleep so we started talking. it was one of those D&M's that you have a 4am in the dark laying in bed. and we started talking about religion because she wasnt a catholic but was really interested in it and we started talking about beliefs and stuff and i started to once again really think about what i believed in and that helped me work alot of stuff out.
i just really think that its not always right to follow a strict religion although i do believe its a good starting point; some of the beliefs of catholicism i do believe in. but then i think its also a good idea to be educated on other religions- so that you can form your own beliefs from them.
but anyways im back to studying
bye!
Oct. 13th, 2004 @ 10:21 am i like this
What if God were not exactly truth, and if this could be proved? And if he were instead the vanity, the desire for power, the ambitions, the fear, and the enraptured and terrified folly of mankind? (Nietzsche, 1890)
Oct. 13th, 2004 @ 09:56 am mmm.....comments
anyone who reads this journal....especially two people who i really didnt know read this....can you please write comments? i like comments.
Oct. 11th, 2004 @ 07:02 pm it was an interesting day today.
So what? Im....: contemplativecontemplative
I love this song:: The sims music
i went for a driving lesson this morning and the guy booked my test so it should be in about a month.
then i came home and painted my toenails.
then i went to my interview. after standing in the sun for 15mins, two guys called me in and asked me questions for about 5mins. i think i went all right but. the only thing that will probably count against me is that i said im "looking" at going to a college next year.
So in about a couple of weeks some major changes in my life could happen- finish the hsc, maybe get this job, maybe pass my p's.
funfunfun.
anywho im back to play the sims.
byes
Oct. 10th, 2004 @ 08:12 pm i hate studying!
So what? Im....: brain overload!!!

Wouldnt it be so much easier if we didnt have to study? if, the first time we learnt something, it stayed in our brains forever and could be called up whenever needed and related to other things that we've learnt? it would mean that we could get through a lot more at school and then maybe not have to be there for as long. if you havent guessed ive been studying quite a bit and its been pissing me off. not the fact that ive actually been studying and getting stuff done but the way it makes me feel. i always feel so tired, so crabby once ive finished studying for the day and cant be bothered to do anything else. but ive nearly finished another subject for english today- Emma and Clueless. i say nearly because ive still got another two scenes to analyse but after doing six hours of notes on E&C today i really cant be bothered. have a driving lesson tomorrow morning. hopefully it goes well and he says that HE thinks im ready to go for the test and he books it. but if he does say yes and i do go for it im not telling anyone when it is exactly. so dont even bother asking! that way i wont get too excited, noones going to keep wishing me luck, and i wont be too disappointed when i fail. but i really need to pass; emma might have a job at Shellharbour woolies and so ill be probably one of the taxis, i need to have my license for next year, if i get this job at Jamberoo ill have to drive there, i need a bit more independance, and its just silly that im 18 and i still have me l's. then i have my interview. im not really stressing about it believe it or not. i think im going to wear my suit. so i look all professional like. Havent seen my nathan in a little while; ive been working or studying or he's been out or whatever. and i havent seemed to talk to him as much as usual lately either. i think its mainly my fault. it seems that at a certain time of the month i get a bit crabbier and the only person i seem to not like as much is my own boyfriend. i still love him but everything just seems to annoy me about him. the last couple of months have been better but, so maybe its just that you know starting out in a relationship, the things that annoy you at first you'll learn to love as well. i really dont think its a problem, i wont ever break up with him because of it, it just seems that i need more space around that time. might see if he wants to come around tomorrow night. i was just looking on the supre site ( for something to do :P) and i swear that either the shorts and skirts are getting shorter or im just getting older. karyn reckons the young 'ens are just getting sluttier. speaking of karyn i brought the rest of her birthday present yesterday. its a joint present between me and nathan so i was able to spend a bit more money on it without spending more money :P i really cant think of what else to write. hsc starts next week. how fun! english first, on the monday, then again on the wednesday, then maths the next monday, then hospitality the tuesday, then retail the next thursday and then art the next wednesday. so its not too bad. hahahaha im still looking at the supre site and they have fashion trends and one is "punk princess" and the clothes were the furthest thing from punk ever. i suppose the oxymoron "punk princess" should have told me all i needed to know. and the fifties stuff just looks stupid. most of the clothes that came out of the forties and fifties were beautiful- really simple stuff, clean lines, made a chick look like a lady but this was just.....stupid. damn supre! i took some photos last night out of boredom and now ive got them on the computer they all basically look like theyre out of focus. stupid things. ill still put a few of them on here anyway. they havent had much done to them and alot of them are shit but anywho.

byes

Oct. 8th, 2004 @ 07:58 pm photoshop cs!
So what? Im....: chipperi cant stop writing!
I love this song:: number nine on the Lamb album

jarrod just put photoshop cs on the computer so im just mucking around with that now. the filter thingies are heaps good.
i just had to go and move all the cars inside- the rav, the beast and the silly car. i dont even have my p's or a car and here i am driving all these cars into the yard. but i felt rich ay. carrying around 3 sets of keys. then i left the keys to the rav in the silly car and had to go get them then i nearly ran over the cat but oh well.
been studying heaps lately. im really proud of what ive done- two subjects for english= nearly a book of notes. only teo more subjects to go. im a bit behind in what i wanted to get done but this is more studying then ive ever done before. but my mums been a weird one; i know that if i wasnt studying then she'd lecture me but she doesnt think i should be doing as much studying as im doing, and im not even doing as much as i know i should be doing! She reckons that its going to stress me out and keeps telling me to go places and stuff or not to study. but whats stressing me out is the fact that im not doing as much as i should be. i listen to cds whilst im studying and im going through my cd case listening to every cd. so far theres 35 cds in a stack next to my cd player. So say that each cd goes for roughly an hour thats 35 hours of study ive done in the past 2 weeks. and so say that ive done the same amount of study each day for those 14 days (which i didnt) then thats 2.5 hours a day. which really isnt much.
had a bit of a get together last night. was supposed to be just about 8 of my friends, pizzas and drinks. but then one friend wasnt sure if she could come because of work, one friend told me on the day that she wasnt coming, and then one friend messaged me a couple of hours before it started to say that his girlfriend was stuck in sydney and he was really sick so i was stuck with 3 people. but it was still fun. karyn wouldnt shut up. we went and tried to say hello to rogers at work but he wasnt there but we saw alysha ( why didnt she come?). got pizzas from work and said hello to the munkchins there. brad got excited because i told him i got an interview for Jamberoo Rec Park (yay!). came back and watched karyns list of reality tv. karyn left so we changed the channel and watched the footy show and some really weird show on the SBS (well what did i expect?). then kerry went home (she got a lift and she lives two minutes away! well i suppose my brother and mum did force her to take the lift.) then nathan went home at exactly midnight (and he didnt turn into a pumpkin) because i kept falling asleep. all in all it was a pretty good night.
had some weird phone calls today. one of emma's "friends" kept ringing up and asking for emma and when i asked who it was they wouldnt tell me and hung up. the second time they called me a shithead. stupid kids. then my boss rang me and wanted to know why i had a really high docket average at work and i thought i was in trouble but she just wanted to know how i did it but i dont have any secrets ive just taken alot of big orders and so i sort of got a compliment of her and i might even get more shifts *crosses fingers*
started decorating a t.shirt for Kerry today. hardly did any but.
anywho emmas yelling at me to get off the computer so i better go.
byes!

I love these last pictures of the dogs...they look like portraits...probably because of the flash. but its a really interesting angle. contrast is my friend!!

The Clock of Life

The clock of life is wound but once.
And noone has the power
To tell just when the hands will stop.
At late or early hour.
Now is the only time you own
Live, love, toil with a will.
Place no faith in tomorrow, for
The clock may then be still.

Oct. 3rd, 2004 @ 01:29 pm im lazy
So what? Im....: studyied out
I love this song:: Papa Roach- Time and Time Again

ok so its been pretty much a week since i last posted. im so lazy. well actually its not really that ive just been busy. and lazy.

i cant be bothered to try and remember what ive done every single day so ill just do a sort of general thing.

last tuesday i went up to Homebush with my chickie karyn. hadnt had much sleep the night before and i was beginning to get sick so i wasnt feeling all the best but it was a fun day anywho. got a clutch bag for the formal.

been sick most of the week. mum thinks its a chest infection. how fun.

On Friday Jarrod was at work so i got on his computer and played Sims2. its really good and really addictive. My girls going good now. had a few whoo hoo's. lol. i got on it at about 1.30 on friday afternoon and got off at about 5ish. i havent had a chance to play again yet and i really want too!

been studying too. if anyone wants to know anything about The Tempest, Wind in the Willows or Back to the Future (especailly sc.7) then just ask me. im actually really proud of myself. this is the most study i think ive ever done. and ive only done a little bit of english. ive decided the best way to do it is rewarding myself. e.g today if i finish off my notes on BTTF (done), my notes on Pure Imagination by the Atarias and write notes on one poem by Gwen Harwood then i can play Sims 2. thats if Jarrod gets home in time with the computer and Emma doesnt play for too long. Hopefully it will work.

I feel like dying my hair or going out and buying a whole new wardrobe. like completly doing a overhaul on myself. not becoming a new person just improving myself. mainly on the outside. because on the inside i think im alright at the moment. maybe i could be a bit nicer to people but i do think ive got alot better.

Anywho I better go and get my study done. Nothing else much interesting has happened this week. Nathan came over a few times, it was my cousins birthday on friday, i worked last night (yay! 3 hours pay!) and thats really about it.

Byes!